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Archive for November, 2010

Renewed, again

November 11th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, I’ve renewed this domain for another year. Is it three years I’ve been doing this, writing this blog? It doesn’t feel like three years, but it is, three years of me writing here. As a whole, I took I’m creating what I’ve always intended,  a constantly evolving memoir of sorts. The last few months just haven’t been good, I’m not writing the way I want, I’ve gone off the track in many ways.

I’m going to turn this around, I can’t not.

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November 10th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, I’ve definitely become a Kindle snob. I do all my reading with the Kindle for Mac app, which’s getting very robust. One new feature is Highlights & Notes, basically you can highlight passages and make margin notes. It seems simple, but I’ve never been able to mark up a book before, yet I’d always liked the idea. It’s really kind of romantic, marking words that feel important, then adding your own words and creating something new. It really helps me focus on the reading too, I’m intently looking for new passages to add to my collection. I feel like I’m building something, and words arranged beautifully are valuable, I like gathering them, keeping them all for myself. I also think creating margin notes is ultimately good for my own writing, it’s good just getting my thoughts out and organized. I can’t write in a vacuum, other people’s work inspires my own, keeping notes is a good way to solidify new ideas.

Eventually, I will start writing again, it’s what I do. It’s been a long slump, and I’m honestly embarrassed, and ashamed. I feel like I’m letting people down, like I’m wasting so much. I’m better than this, I’m going to be me again. In the meantime, I have my margin notes.


Tomorrow, I swear!

November 09th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, today simply got away from me, it was hectic. There was a power outage, my vent has between ten and thirty minutes of internal backup power, but I was with some new people who just hadn’t been io that particular situation. They were smart and handled it spectacularly, but it wasn’t automatic, I was more on edge, more shook up than I should have been. I wasn’t calm inside. I’m issuing orders, “You need to go get a vent battery right now.” I wasn’t myself, I feel bad about it. I was too on-edge after.

Anyway, tomorrow, I really write.



November 08th, 2010 | Category: Life,Random Thought

Tomorrow, tomorrow I will focus and write something real.

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November 07th, 2010 | Category: Life,Random Thought

So, I’m still struggling with writing, with a lot. I’m working on it.

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November 06th, 2010 | Category: Life,Opinions

I’ve been reading this book by Catherynne M. Valente, The Habitation of the Blessed: A Dirge for Prester John, Volume One. It’s good, and I’ll write a review after I finish, but one quote caught my attention…

“Distraction is the enemy of perfection.”

I will never be remotely close to perfection, it seems. I’m drowning in distraction, and melancholy, and…

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Something other than politics

November 05th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, I’ve been writing lots about politics… I’m just so sucked in, so engrossed in this crazy political landscape of ours. It’s just scary. Still, I’ll start writing something else. Soon.

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This is who you elected

November 04th, 2010 | Category: Life,Opinions

This is Tea Party darling, Congress-woman, Michelle Bachmann, and a classic example of Tea Party interview strategy. If you get cornered by a real journalist, someone outside FOX News, stick to one across the board answer to every single question. Give absolutely no real answers.


The Republican sell-out paid off

November 03rd, 2010 | Category: Life,Opinions

So, the Republicans won big enough, they took the House, a bunch of Tea Party nuts won. Rand “The Civil Rights Act Was a Bad Idea” Paul won. I don’t understand how people could think this road is better, giving power back to the people who spent eight years digging the hole that has everyone so angry.

How could President Obama and the Democrats turn that disaster around in two years, especially with Republicans rubber-stamping everything with a giant “NO?” They slowed our progress, on purpose, in order to say, “See, the Democrats aren’t helping you.” They sold America out to gain enough political capital to win the mid-terms. They prayed to their gay-hating God that people wouldn’t notice their ploy, and people didn’t notice. They keep talking about debt, the American people spoke out about debt. Who gave us that debt? Who got us into two wars? Who gave the richest Americans massive tax-cuts, while letting everyone else suffer? Who de-regulated Wall-Street to a degree that nearly killed our economy? The Republicans did those things. It’s disgusting, I’m disgusted.


Rock the vote

November 02nd, 2010 | Category: Life,Opinions

I never really cared about politics. Politics was just something that happened, I didn’t see it as anything tangible. I mean, my life didn’t seem any different depending on who got elected to what, and where. The thing is, I just wasn’t paying attention, thirty years of elections and those people elected, steering legislation, it has all affected my life. Because of lots of legislators, President Clinton, even Governor Jeb Bush, especially Jeb Bush, being disabled doesn’t mean I have to be stuck in some institution, or dead. Because of legislation I have access to healthcare, and assistants, and technology. I can go on dates, and to movies, and whatever else I love doing, all because my place in society is legislated, and because I’m a part of society, I can give back. I never really considered any of this until Curling and the 2010 Winter Olympics. See, Curling was on MSNBC, like, at any given hour, and at some point during my Curlingasm I stumbled onto The Rachel Maddow Show. I always like someone who’s passionate about what they do, Rachel is totally passionate. I was mesmerized. She LOVES politics, she’d talk about it on street corners to anyone who would listen if nobody would pay her to do so. If it ever comes to that, if Rachel Maddow ends up talking politics in Times Square, I’ll totally camp out with her. She’s brilliant, she knows her stuff, and that’s why I kept watching. Then I started watching Countdown with Keith Olbermann, and, well, I feel like I’ve stepped through the Looking-Glass and there’s no going back. Politics is tangible, there are consequences to who gets elected to what, and where. Today’s mid-term elections are serious, and important. Frankly, I’m worried about what could happen to people with disabilities if too many Republicans win today, I’m worried about the entire country.

Today’s Republican Party is scary, they’re extremists who will take us backward. The Tea Party is a group of uneducated nut-jobs with winning ideas like, the repeal of healthcare reform, the abolishment of the Department of Education, the privatization of Social Security and Medicare (ie, if the private sector crashes again, those programs are fucked), the criminalization of abortion, no Civil-Rights for gays, I could go on and on. These are their goals. As a whole, the Republicans are big on investigating President Obama. You know, proving he’s a Kenyan Socialist secret Muslim terrorist and tossing him out of office. Forget the economy, public education, clean energy, the Republicans have other more pressing matters at hand. This sounds crazy, I wish it was fiction, but it isn’t. It so isn’t.

People are frustrated with President Obama, and in-turn the Democrats, President Obama was supposed to unite the parties and give every American a job, and a unicorn, but things haven’t quite worked out that way. President Obama took office and inherited a disaster, an economy on the brink of The Great Depression II: Depression Strikes Back, two wars, massive debt caused by those two wars, he walked into a nightmare. I’ve always said that the Obama administration sucks at PR, at touting accomplishments. People don’t realize the good he has done in under two years. The deficit is down under President Obama. The evil Stimulus Package, it worked. It saved our economy from collapse, saved millions of jobs, and included tax cuts for every American. It didn’t create jobs like people hoped, but this is a work in progress. The evil bailouts of the auto and banking industries, they worked, the loans are being paid back. Imagine all the lost jobs if the U.S. car companies had folded. President Obama did all these things against fierce opposition from the Republicans. The Republicans simply do not like him, they fight every single bill the Democrats bring forward, even things they usually agree on, like infrastructure spending. Their goal is to make President Obama a single-term President, damn progress.

So, if you haven’t voted yet, do, and think about these things before you cast your ballot.


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