My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Sep 5

The push

Drugs, and liquor, and loneliness, and ghosts.They’ll hold you close and kiss you slow. They’re forever friends, eager lovers.

They’ll hold your hand, they’ll walk you home. Drugs, and liquor, and loneliness, and ghosts. They’ll fling you toward oblivion, and you’ll welcome the push.


7 Comments so far

  1. kelly September 5th, 2009 10:02 pm

    That is really good and so true.

  2. Pete September 6th, 2009 8:11 am

    So true my friend, so true…..

  3. Rachel September 9th, 2009 12:39 pm

    Did you write that? I know that seems like a redundant question-it’s just you often quote lyrics from things-but I guess you would site the source.

    I am going to send it to a friend of mine who has been in a battle-and I wanted to make sure I correctly credited you as the author.


  4. michael September 9th, 2009 1:01 pm

    Rachel: Yes, I wrote it. I write little things like that when I’m bored, or depressed, or nervous.

  5. Rachel September 9th, 2009 1:07 pm

    I think it will really resonate with him. He has been in a dark place since March and is fighting his way out.

    Thanks for sharing all that you do.-One day I have a secret I am going to tell you ;p

  6. Rachel September 9th, 2009 1:53 pm

    The quote had the effect I thought it would on my friend. I thought you might be interested to read his respose:

    “i’ve called you an angel
    and so you continue to be
    reminding me today of the phantom’s angel of music
    with the quote you sent from Michael, that couldn’t be any more
    apt, true, appropriate, touching especially today
    …those have been my companions through these 6 months
    and today is the first that two are completely gone from my body
    but the latter two remain very much here with me
    holding my hands
    leaving me unafraid of oblivion
    no not oblivion
    there is no such thing
    but departure
    whether it be now or 30 years from now
    whenever is my appointed time
    and mom and dad and [k] and [z] and [s] and [n] (names omitted-for his privacy)
    will hopefully be there to cross me over….
    i never sent you the rest of what i wrote the other night
    but one day i will
    …i welcome ghosts now rather than fear them
    …i know they are here but long to see them
    in addition to feeling their thoughts
    …i saw a ghost one time in my life
    when i was a little boy
    my grandfather
    and it scared me
    but in my heart i knew there would come another day
    when i wouldn’t be apprehensive
    ….when i would keep my eyes wide open in the dark
    and invite the glow
    ….and that day came a couple of nights ago….
    and i haven’t seen anything
    but i have put the invitation out there
    and opened myself to the possibility of the experience
    (although i’ll just be regarded as even crazier than i’m regarded now
    if that night ever comes
    and if i were to write about it or tell anyone…..)
    and loneliness
    which has always been so frightening to me
    weighing down so many of my moments
    now offers a sweetness
    an assurance that i will never again experience this deep feeling of loss
    …so yes
    the quote speaks to me

  7. michael April 17th, 2013 8:06 am

    Rachel: Is your friend okay?