My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Feb 27


Category: Life

After thinking about it, I feel like I wasted the previous two posts. If I were quitting this blog, they’d be perfect. They’re just an obscure allusion to British TV that suited my mood at the time, still kind of do. I’m tired lately, but nothing’s finished, the blog isn’t finished. This blog probably won’t be finished until I am, that’s been the goal, anyway. This blog is supposed to reflect me, I’ve called it a live memoir, and I think I’ve been doing what I set out to do. Life isn’t always up, it’s a disturbing roller-coaster, and I think this blog is accurately reflecting my ride. Though, the roller-coaster metaphor is actually pretty stupid, it implies that we have absolutely no control over what happens while we’re breathing. We have free-will, just enough to make things interesting.

I have free-will, I have some control over my current… ennui. I have to get out of this.


2 Comments so far

  1. sara February 27th, 2011 5:00 pm

    Listen to John Lennon’s song “Look at Me” the entire album was his finest…but this song was beautiful…

  2. L February 28th, 2011 12:43 am

    You will get out of this, like you have everything else. A beautiful, subtle, touching moment will come–maybe through literature, maybe in some other way–and you’ll smile again on the inside, at least for a moment. Ennui passes. Hang in there.