My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Jun 16

Tattoo #38

Category: Life,Tattoos

Tattoo by John, Las Vegas Tattoo, Ybor City

So, I’ve been admittedly kind of lost for awhile. Just look at my general lack of writing, I clearly don’t know what the fuck I’m doing much of the time. A year ago, the road felt so much clearer. I wanted this, and this, and this, and then I’d be happy. It’s difficult when you have this plan, this map of your life, and that plan doesn’t work, and that map catches fire, and you pour vodka on it trying to put out the blaze. You end up lost because you only had one answer to the question, “Well, what would make you happy?”

This all sort of hit me one day when my favorite Indigo Girls song, Closer to Fine, came up in my shuffle. Life doesn’t have just one answer for every question, and the sooner you figure that out, the sooner you open yourself up to everything if something else isn’t working, the closer you are to fine. Hence my thirty-eighth tattoo.


2 Comments so far

  1. Jeff June 21st, 2010 3:14 am

    Sometimes I don’t even know what the questions are. I ride the crooked line baby… always.

  2. Marcy June 30th, 2010 9:50 pm

    I have felt this way in my life too. Like, “I’ll be happy once I finish school. OK, that didn’t work, I’ll be happy when I get a new job. Not that either.” I have felt like I’m always living my life for the next big thing to come. Sometimes I feel like I’ve run out of big things coming. Maybe we should learn to burn all of our maps, drink the vodka, and just see what happens.