My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Jul 27

What now?

Category: Life

So, my writing troubles feel like they’ve bottomed out. I can’t see how things could possibly feel any worse, any more stuck. I’m taking this feeling as something good, as a positive state of affairs. Now that my writing is so totally fucked, now that I’ve tumbled all the way down the hill, it’s a good time to trudge back up said metaphorical hill. It’s time to just start writing thoughts, every day (if I can swing it), until everything starts firing hot again. I’ll just begin with whatever thoughts are floating around in my head, even if they feel dull, because I know that the sharper writings will follow.

I think a lot about Tivoli, every day, really, and I know that she wouldn’t want me not writing. She wouldn’t want me just shutting down like I am. I wish I could talk to her, not that I don’t. I talk to her a lot, a lot a lot, she just doesn’t answer back. I wish Tivoli could answer back.


6 Comments so far

  1. Ginger July 27th, 2014 9:09 pm

    A sentence a day. At least a sentence a day.

  2. maria X (Mrs. Xenick in your school life) July 27th, 2014 10:32 pm

    Yay! I love that the writing is back! Though the tone is sad, the prose is beautiful. Tivoli would be proud! Keep listening by the way. She will answer back 🙂

  3. josh July 28th, 2014 12:10 am

    Yes! The only place left to go is up!
    You’ve got at least a few folks cheering you on, and the more you write, the more will recognize that yours is a singular, passionate voice worthy of attention.

  4. Georgette July 28th, 2014 6:01 am

    Maybe just start with the first word that pops into your head when you wake up, and take it from there….you write from the heart, and that is what makes reading anything you write interesting.

  5. Otavio Pacheco July 29th, 2014 9:32 am

    It’s been a long time since I don’t write anything important. I know what you’re feeling. These days I’m with some ideas inside my mind, but ideas for screenplays, I’ll try to write it down, but it’s been so difficult… Sometimes writing is so hard, and sometimes it’s so easy…

  6. michael July 29th, 2014 1:04 pm

    maria X: If Tivoli starts answering back, it means I’ve had a seizure, or I died. Either way, I suppose I wouldn’t care.