My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

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Sep 25


Category: Random Thought

You know, if I want to avoid a searing desire to enjoy large quantities of opiates, I really ought not watch the TAL episode for the time being.


16 Comments so far

  1. Wendy September 25th, 2008 7:34 pm

    Avoiding…excellent idea. Stick with it.

    I have no desire to see you on A&E’s Intervention.

    Hang in there, you.

  2. michael September 25th, 2008 7:43 pm

    I love that show.

  3. Wendy September 25th, 2008 7:50 pm

    ME too.

    But I still don’t want to see you on it… 😉

  4. Teresa September 25th, 2008 9:43 pm

    Mike you have the strength in you to resist and redirect. Come on dude – use that intelligent, imaginative mind to do something creative. What about your beautiful artwork? Have you done any lately? The praying over your body is a strange thing and yeah you can have any conversation and used any language you want with God…He can take it!

  5. redandjonny September 25th, 2008 9:51 pm

    I’ve watched your episode so many times I have it pretty much memorized. People hate watching it with me, cuz I speak along to all the dialogue.

  6. michael September 25th, 2008 9:56 pm

    Then, let’s vow never to watch it again, man.

  7. redandjonny September 25th, 2008 10:40 pm

    uh.. er.. hehe…I’m actually watching it right now…

  8. michael September 25th, 2008 10:45 pm

    Well, fuck.

  9. redandjonny September 25th, 2008 10:50 pm

    fuck dude… Fine.. I won’t watch it.

    But I’m still gonna seed the torrent.

  10. Teresa September 26th, 2008 1:57 am

    seems you continue to choose to wallow in the misery and the darkness…thanks anyway but I’m not going to join you…I hope you are doing something for yourself like watching a great movie – but something that doesn’t make you pissed or morbid…hey here’s a new one – try picking one out that will make you laugh your ass off? just don’t laugh so hard that you pop that needle out of your neck…

  11. michael September 26th, 2008 2:38 am

    Look, Teresa… I’m not asking you or anybody to join me anywhere. Don’t read it, I don’t care. I’m not going to write a bunch of lies about being happy right now. If I’m down, I write it. If I’m up, I write it. I guess I’m just not strong enough to will my emotions one way or the other. I feel how I feel until it stops. I totally admit that I’m fucked up, and I’m actually scared that I can’t get out of it, but I’ll keep going anyway. Your telling me to be happy isn’t going to make me happy.

  12. Steph September 26th, 2008 7:17 am

    Watch anything else.

    Leave it to Beaver. The Dick VanDyke Show. I love Lucy. Night Court. Mad Men. The West Wing. Weeds. The Sopranos. Entourage. Mystery. Masterpiece Theater. Youtube.

    TAL, it’s fantastic, but leave it for now.

  13. Teresa September 26th, 2008 8:21 am

    no one is asking you to be happy right now and no one is asking you to lie, but you do have choices. Maybe you don’t want to feel peace or be happy…maybe you are actually comfortable in the dark…if you want to feel some warmth in th light you could make the choice to stop making fucked-up choices. A VERY simple start would be to make the choice to watch something funny that you know you’ve enjoyed in the past!It might lift your spirits and it might not but it’s not going to hurt.

  14. michael September 26th, 2008 8:42 am

    You know, I have something like 400 movies and Harvey is probably the happiest one. I think that says a lot about me. Besides, I don’t think watching a few movies is going to do the trick.

  15. Teresa September 26th, 2008 1:18 pm

    Uncle Buck does it for me every time! Puts a smile on my face – even if it’s only for a few minutes!

  16. monica September 26th, 2008 6:03 pm


    Uncle Buck tomorrow? instead of Heroes?

    lemme know.