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Actually

September 10th, 2008 | Category: Life

Actually, as I thought about what I wrote below, I realized it’s not quite right. I have done great things, just nothing consistent, lasting. I have done things that were so beyond important to me, but I’ve fucked them up. Sometimes I feel like Jack’s wasted life. Then, of course, sometimes I don’t.

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Leavin’ on a jet-plane

September 10th, 2008 | Category: Life

So, tomorrow I’m leavin’ on a jet-plane, I don’t know when I’ll be back again… No, I’ll be back Tuesday. I’m going to L.A. for the technical Emmys. They film the whole affair, then they show clips of the winners during the big Emmys. The people from Showtime and This American Life are being spectacular and sending me to join in on the festivities. I’ve mentioned it, but the show’s up for five awards, four for an episode they did about me.

I feel weird about it. I loved the experience and I want them to win because they really did some amazing work, but personally I don’t feel like I deserve anything. Back 2007 I simply managed to choke on some pineapple juice and almost die. I’ve never done or ever do anything great, and maybe I never will. At least, none of it is great to me. I’ve consistently managed to fuck up everything that is important to me.

So, I was able to clearly write about almost dying and everything that happened from losing my voice to my girlfriend. I’m really great at writing about bad things that I experience. It could be the only thing that I do well. I don’t think I personally deserve anything for it. Still, I want the show to win because it did honestly capture the small portion of my life that I wasn’t screwing everything up.

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Wake me

September 10th, 2008 | Category: Random Thought

Wake me up when September ends…

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