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Archive for November, 2010


November 21st, 2010 | Category: Life

I wonder how much longer I’ll be stuck in this rut..



November 20th, 2010 | Category: Life

Today was crazy, I couldn’t write.

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November 19th, 2010 | Category: Creative Flash

…and he got on a bus, a bus to it doesn’t matter where, he didn’t even bother to look. He has one of those passes, he could ride up and down the East coast until next year, if he felt like it. Maybe he does feel like it, life in perpetual motion, motion without movement. Going everywhere, but nowhere.

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So, lately

November 18th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, lately my trach’s been bothering me, my ear’s acting up again, so I can’t hear so well. I’m just not feeling so great, I’m kind of nervous all the time. It’s hard to write like that, or just to focus on anything. Then there’s this other box of somethings I can’t write until, I don’t know, five minutes before I die, I guess. I’m trying, though. I’m trying to be better.

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Man Bear Pig: Fiction?

November 17th, 2010 | Category: Life

I’m just going to ask a question, I haven’t had time today to write what I hope to write tomorrow… bet356

Being that we saw Man Bear Pig in Imaginationland, does that mean he is simply Al Gore’s psychotic delusion?

Now, many of you will have no idea what I’m talking about, but for those who do…

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Living iMac

November 16th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, the folks at the International Plaza Apple Store were kind enough to replace my iMac outright. They’re the best fuckin’ Apple Store around!

I’m much relieved.

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Dead iMac

November 15th, 2010 | Category: Life

So, my main computer, the new 27″ iMac, it over-heated, and crashed, and died. It has stayed dead. I imagine that the fan quietly left this world days or weeks ago, the machine’s insides cooked, and now it is no more. I’m trying to write this with dark humor, but I’m miserable.


The Habitation of the Blessed: A Dirge for Prester John, Volume One

November 14th, 2010 | Category: Opinions

The Habitation of the Blessed: A Dirge for Prester John, Volume One by Catherynne M. Valente is her latest work and her addition to the legend of Prester John. Tales of Prester John aren’t new, they began in 12th century Europe, but Valente’s take on him is definitely unique. The basic story, told for centuries, is that John was a Christian fellow who went East to convert millions and become ruler over vast and beautiful, and even magical lands. Within his kingdom one could find the Fountain of Youth, and countless wonders. Valente takes the basic framework of the Prester John legend and makes it her own.

When I picked up Habitation, I really had no idea what I was getting into. I just saw that Catherynne M. Valente published something new and I slammed my money down. Her books have never left me disappointed, and her latest is really no exception. I don’t want to give too much about the story, I don’t want to rob anyone of that sense of discovery that I experienced. The book is really home to four stories told by four characters, these stories brilliantly intersect and ultimately tie together to create a lush and fully-realized world. As always, Valente’s use of language is gorgeous, she arranges words into sentences, into paragraphs that create life. Early on, the reader knows that the world they’re immersed in is tumbling toward something bad, the “what” isn’t clear, but it’s clearly coming. This sets a sense of foreboding, it causes one to want to turn the page, and turn the page, and turn the page until the last page, the last revelation. There’s this shadow over everything, beautiful scenes take on an ominous feeling, because that fall is coming, it’s so right there. This book is haunting, I still think about the end, it tells a story that stays. Let it visit and stay with you.

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Quiet space

November 13th, 2010 | Category: Life

I need to actively create some quiet space, just time to focus and write. I’m not doing that, I’m kind of just on auto-pilot, reading, playing World of Warcraft, watching movies. I haven’t had a “going out assistant” since early August, and that never helps anything. Next week should be different. I’m so angry with myself for being… here.


Long week

November 12th, 2010 | Category: Life

It’s been a really long week, I’m tired. I haven’t really been sleeping, I just get exhausted and shut down, then some horrible dream wakes me… It’s a loop. I have too much in my head, too much weight on me. I can’t even write anything simple, I’m too tired.

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