My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Aug 27

Emo Goth Atheist Poetry Blog

Category: Life

For a few hours this week I seriously considered making this an Emo Goth Atheist Poetry blog, but I’m not quite ready. I really don’t have the energy for it, nor do I know how to write poetry. Also, as much as I thought about it over about fourteen-hours, I’m definitely not an Atheist. The idea that God couldn’t hate me or punish me because there is no God seemed really nice, but then it felt really empty and frightening. If there is no God, even a God that hates me sometimes, then that means I’m entirely alone. I have nowhere to go for help, or to ask for forgiveness to get help. Everything would be random, and I just don’t like or accept that idea. I can’t. Maybe I’m weak, I don’t know.


8 Comments so far

  1. Ormolu August 27th, 2008 3:13 pm

    I don’t think it’s weakness. But then, I’m not an atheist, either. I know plenty who are, but it doesn’t fit for me. I believe in a god of some kind, but I’m still working out the details.

    I think Einstein summed it up nicely when he said, “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”

    And just like that, I’ve made my comment all about me. 😉

  2. MagnoliaFly August 27th, 2008 4:56 pm

    I believe something of extreme intelligence created us… I don’t know that I’d call it God per se though.

    I don’t think I could go totally Athiest either. Thats like going totally Vegan in my mind… a little too difficult and hard to swallow.

    If God exists does that mean zombies cannot? I wonder if they are mutally exclusive. Hmm.

  3. michael August 27th, 2008 5:16 pm

    No, actually, if zombies exist, God almost definitely exists. Seth Gecko said something about vampires that I think applies to both, “If there has a Hell and those sons of bitches are from it, then there’s got to be a Heaven…”

  4. Melissa August 28th, 2008 3:09 pm

    Maybe what you are expressing is a desire to have faith in something–you are calling it God. But maybe it doesn’t have to be God. Maybe the experience of having faith is what sustains us in our moments of loneliness, pain, difficulty. Faith to me is the belief that things can be different. It’s our capacity to experience one reality and hope for another. And it is incredibly powerful. I guess it is not unlike Einstein’s belief in the importance of imagination: “Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere.” The power to think or believe in something that is other than what is in front of you. I think it is our capacity for faith that makes us human. My particular brand of faith is faith in the human spirit. When I’m down on the world and can barely tolerate the people in it, I think of people in horrible situations that despite their lot, exude strength and keep hope. This ability to see beyond ourselves and our own situations and aspire for something else is particularly inspiring to me. So I guess you could say my faith is in our capacity to have faith. I’m totally talking in circles now but it totally makes sense to me.

  5. redandjonny August 28th, 2008 11:59 pm

    There is no god.. but you are not alone.

  6. redandjonny August 29th, 2008 12:04 am

    I found a great Peter Gabriel/ Kate bush song today.

    I’m in a bad situation right now… but before I could let myself be consoled by it.. I immediately wanted to tell you about it too. It’s 80’s..its kinda cheese.. but It helped me a lot today.

    Link to video:


    In this proud land we grew up strong
    We were wanted all along
    I was taught to fight, taught to win
    I never thought I could fail

    No fight left or so it seems
    I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
    Ive changed my face, Ive changed my name
    But no one wants you when you lose

    Dont give up
    cos you have friends
    Dont give up
    Youre not beaten yet
    Dont give up
    I know you can make it good

    Though I saw it all around
    Never thought I could be affected
    Thought that wed be the last to go
    It is so strange the way things turn

    Drove the night toward my home
    The place that I was born, on the lakeside
    As daylight broke, I saw the earth
    The trees had burned down to the ground

    Dont give up
    You still have us
    Dont give up
    We dont need much of anything
    Dont give up
    cause somewhere theres a place
    Where we belong

    Rest your head
    You worry too much
    Its going to be alright
    When times get rough
    You can fall back on us
    Dont give up
    Please dont give up

    got to walk out of here
    I cant take anymore
    Going to stand on that bridge
    Keep my eyes down below
    Whatever may come
    And whatever may go
    That rivers flowing
    That rivers flowing

    Moved on to another town
    Tried hard to settle down
    For every job, so many men
    So many men no-one needs

    Dont give up
    cause you have friends
    Dont give up
    Youre not the only one
    Dont give up
    No reason to be ashamed
    Dont give up
    You still have us
    Dont give up now
    Were proud of who you are
    Dont give up
    You know its never been easy
    Dont give up
    cause I believe theres the a place
    Theres a place where we belong

  7. Andrew Yates August 30th, 2008 8:41 pm

    I think you are the single most qualified person to be goth in the whole of the lower 48 states.

  8. michael August 30th, 2008 8:52 pm

    Is that good or bad?