My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

May 9


Category: Life,Opinions

I’ve never had this much trouble writing, at least, not since I started writing this blog. It’s a bad feeling, not being able to create, it’s frustrating. I know I can fix it, I know I can dig my way out if I try hard enough. I mean, ultimately, writing is the only thing I have that’s truly mine, I can’t quit. Whatever I write is what will be around when I go wherever I go after I quit breathing, it’ll be all that’s left. I want something left. So, this not being able to write nonsense has to stop.

I need to pull myself together. I need to write with complete abandon. My writing is about absolute honesty, I need to get back to that place. I need to write like Kurt, and Elliott, and Alanis, writing without safety nets. Otherwise, the writing is empty and meaningless.


7 Comments so far

  1. Amy May 11th, 2010 7:19 pm

    Perhaps the whole challenge of writing 500 words a day wasn’t a good idea? I find sometimes when I’m obliged to do things, I don’t want to, and I definitely couldn’t be creative if I HAD to be.

  2. Joshua May 11th, 2010 10:04 pm

    I’ve been following your blog for a while, but haven’t commented before. In any case, I’d have to agree with Amy here. Whenever I’ve tried to set goals and force myself to write it puts me into a place where I CAN’T write. It’s something that has to come naturally and you certainly can’t beat yourself up when you can’t pull off the 500 words one day. Keep at it, because I love your writing and hope you get past your writer’s block soon.


  3. josh May 19th, 2010 8:40 am

    Try to pinpoint the thing(s) holding you back and go from there. If there’s something you have to clear from your mind to let everything flow naturally, get to work! I guarantee there are a lot of people waiting for your creative spark to return.

  4. Jillian May 20th, 2010 2:38 am

    Hi. I recently watched the This American Life episode about you (and inner city cowboys). I hope you were satisfied with the portrayal of your life. I imagine it would be strange to see your life through a stranger’s lens.
    I searched for your blog after it was mentioned on the show. After looking through several pages of entries I felt compelled to comment. I really enjoy your deep and honest writing. I am (was?) a writer for a time and this entry rings particularly true to me. I’m sure the words will flow again soon. Don’t get caught up in the pressure that it’s what you have to do, once it’s what you want to do and are ready to do, the thoughts will come pouring out. Hopefully soon!

  5. steph May 23rd, 2010 9:40 pm

    we’ve all got it in us my friend.

  6. foshoflo June 7th, 2010 3:26 pm

    I find I write more when I read more of the stuff I like, and not just books I’ve read before but new titles. I read a fantastic book the other day, “What Happened to Lani Garver” by Carol Plum-Ucci. It’s for young adults but I still found it enthralling the whole way through. At times I got a little frustrated with the narrator.

  7. Otávio Pacheco July 1st, 2010 11:29 pm

    Writer’s block sucks. And writing without safety nets is very hard indeed. Don’t worry, this will pass.