My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Jan 10


Category: Random Thought

Follow my head, follow my heart, I’m not sure which is right. Maybe they’re both wrong, both deranged, both telling me the wrong way to go. My head and my heart, two lunatic mental patients, bickering a bunch of nothing. Or… maybe they’re both right in their own way. I really don’t know, and the more  I think about it, the less I seem to know.

While I think about it, I do nothing, or next to nothing. Perhaps I think too much.


4 Comments so far

  1. Will January 10th, 2009 8:00 pm

    Life’s a journey as hokey as that sounds; the tough stuff later is seen as building blocks; the crap we don’t want we have to actually experience to be able to identify…I’ve got lots of peace and contentment after so much self torment so all I can add is; not only does it get better as it goes; it gets more refined, your ability to balance head/heart, you know more of what you want, who you are, and what you’re capable of as you go. Doubt fear insecurity necessary but only in a small degree. One guide is, if it’s not working; it’s not working, change the situation via your approach, or change how you think about it; otherwise you’re locked in a doggypaddle, struggling against your own stream. Feel free to doubt, question, wonder, think too much, but have a goal after awhile of where these thoughts should end up at. And go easy on yourself about taking action; it’s better in my opin to know how you feel than feeling good about actions taken. Life’s in flux, always…the solids/the constants, we seem to make all on our own. After much todo and after much struggling. Youre really young. Revel in that. Feel free to give yourself a break.

  2. Karen (the first one) January 10th, 2009 11:38 pm

    I dunno, I was watching a documentary about this show when I read your post; it’s the first thing that came to mind.

    (The first part, that is. Not the part about “Black boys are delicious”, that’s just the next part of the movie. But it’s a good movie, so.)

    By the way, I saw Doubt today – hadn’t been in a hurry to, since I felt like I knew it from the play, but your postings about it kind of spurred me to get off my butt and go. I thought it was a good adaptation of what was onstage in the play. I did wind up feeling strongly about it one way, but I went on IMDB and there were people arguing it the other way.

    (Minor spoiler: I felt like the final shot of William London was the decisive piece you didn’t get in the play, though it definitely wasn’t conclusive on all pieces of the story.) I think the way that the priest is portrayed/perceived has a lot to do with how the whole piece plays.

    Just my two cents. I fully expect people to disagree.

  3. michael January 11th, 2009 1:04 am

    Karen, I totally agree about William London.

  4. Samuel January 13th, 2009 3:05 pm

    I hear you about that one and can relate. Sometimes I feel so split. 😉 Yet, lately, I have been watching it all and even when it is a bit tight, it seems to be more singular.