My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Oct 1


Category: Life

My best friend died today, I feel like I died too. I should have, I don’t know why I didn’t. I’m broken and I can’t fix it.


9 Comments so far

  1. Wendy October 1st, 2008 6:42 pm

    I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.

    Can I help somehow????

  2. redandjonny October 1st, 2008 7:04 pm

    Fuck Dude. That really sucks.

    You need to write about it. Fiction or just how youre feeling.. but get it all out.

    I feel for yeh bro.

  3. meg October 1st, 2008 7:07 pm

    “I don’t know, perhaps it’s a dream, all a dream, that would surprise me, I’ll wake, in the silence, and never sleep again, it will be I, or dream, dream again, dream of a silence, a dream silence, full of murmurs, I don’t know, that’s all words, never wake, all words, there’s nothing else, you must go on, that’s all I know, they’re going to stop, I know that well, I can feel it, they’re going to abandon me, it will be the silence, for a moment, a good few moments, or it will be mine, the lasting one, that didn’t last, that still lasts, it will be I, you must go on, I can’t go on, you must go on, I’ll go on, you must say words, as long as there are any, until they find me, until they say me, strange pain, strange sin, you must go on, perhaps it’s done already, perhaps they have said me already, perhaps they have carried me to the threshold of my story, before the door that opens on my story, that would surprise me, if it opens, it will be I, it will be the silence, where I am, I don’t know, I’ll never know, in the silence you don’t know, you must go on, I can’t go on, I’ll go on.”

    -The Unnamable, Samuel Beckett

    When it’s staged properly, it’s the most beautiful speech you can imagine.


  4. Ormolu October 1st, 2008 8:50 pm

    Oh my god… I’m stunned.

    I’m so sorry.

  5. arsenalgear October 1st, 2008 10:30 pm

    I’m very sorry Mike. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  6. Candyce October 2nd, 2008 12:20 am

    I’m sorry you lost your friend. I’ll be sending prayers your way…

  7. Jessica McLeod October 2nd, 2008 12:50 am

    I’m so sorry, Mike.

  8. Teresa October 2nd, 2008 1:07 am

    We understand death for the first time when he puts his hand upon one whom we love. ~Madame de Stael

    Yes Mike – a part of us does die when someone we love dies. It’s a gutwrenching pain the gnaws at our core. Please tell us about you friend who died. We would like to know about the life of this person…sending a hug your way!

  9. Rachel October 2nd, 2008 8:16 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear this. Sending love to you, my friend.<3