My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Feb 27

Asleep soon

Soon, you’ll be asleep. Drugs will travel through a tube and into a vein in your neck, and you’ll go down. It’ll feel like forty year-old scotch, like the best sex you ever had, and you’ll go under, totally lost and happy to be so.

Yet, before the drugs take you, before life fades to black, you wonder about things. You wonder if you’ll wake up again, you wonder where you’ll go if you don’t wake up. You wonder if you’re a good person, if you deserve a return trip to consciousness. Mostly, though, you think about her. You think about her gorgeous brown eyes, the little strand of curly brown hair that dangles behind her ear. You think about her voice, how the sound of it makes you happy. You never hear her enough, you never tire of talking with her. She’s ridiculously smart, endlessly interesting. You think about holding her close, her warmth against your chest. You think about holding her, kissing her, soft and slow-like. You wonder what she thinks about you, if you’ll see her again.

The drugs are hitting you now, and soon you’ll be asleep.


5 Comments so far

  1. camila February 27th, 2009 7:18 pm

    did you feel all that ? i’m curious !

  2. michael February 27th, 2009 11:11 pm

    camila: Every bit.

  3. Brooke February 28th, 2009 1:33 pm

    You are such a beautiful writer.. It’s amazing

  4. michael February 28th, 2009 5:35 pm

    Brooke: Thanks!

  5. Alex Carnegie February 28th, 2009 10:21 pm

    It just occurred to me that this passage might also work really well in terms of film: could do a “keyhole surgery” style shot of the drugs going down through the tube, into ‘you’ then go to POV and a slow fade to black with a heartbeat in the background(?) and little echoes of remembered speech, fleeting images and so on… If nothing else it’d be a killer music video!

    I’ve been watching a documentary on Hitchcock tonight so I’ve got cinematic technique on the brain!