My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Feb 4


I’ve written about Atheism, liking the idea of Atheism, but I’m not an Atheist. I tend to believe in God, but not a happy God. I believe in Tori Amos’ God, a God Who doesn’t come through. I believe in Tyler Durden’s God, a God Who doesn’t want me, doesn’t like me, probably hates me. I believe in Elliott Smith’s God, a God Who makes problems just to see what I can stand before I do as the Devil pleases.

I tend to think that we’re God’s tv show. He probably doesn’t help us, He doesn’t hurt us, but I think He gives, or allows us obstacles to see how we’ll react, things to make the show more interesting. Mostly, He just watches as we find pleasure, or suffer. I don’t think God is actively out to fuck anybody over, but I definitely don’t count on Him to do me any favors. 

Ultimately, all we can do is solve our own problems, and help each other out. God would just as soon watch you struggle and die than do anything about it.

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  1. Will February 4th, 2009 6:35 pm

    I’ll take the gift of Free Will if that’s what it is and there is a “God”. I’ll take actually a system so complex with no need to understand it’s orgins that replicates life for the sake of life begetting more life, allowed to create and destroy, torment and love, as we see fit…I’ll take that any fucking day over some benevolent well intention meddler who in essence is an absentee landlord for all the prayers and commandments. Personally I still feel Human’s insistence on a need for an actual God instead of the goodness their capable of, destroys more than assists, and definately is the cause of more wars than this planet and the other innocent bystander species can handle much more of. Oh well; at least we’re here; like all Suns, ours will go supernova and go Boom soon enough. Glad to have had the chance of independent thought and choice. If there is a God, gotta give props to Her for that one. If there’s not, so be it, enjoy the ride.