My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Dec 5

It’s December!

Category: Life

So, it’s December… This blog is renewed for another year… I quit Monica almost a year ago… I started seeing this girl again, and I aim to be with her a year from right now, and another, and another, and so on. December’s a weird month. It’s fun, and presents, and shiny lights, and candy canes, but it’s also looking back at the eleven months before, successes, failures, wins, losses. It’s been kind of a shitty, awful year. I feel like I should list all the bad things, “for the record,” this blog is a record of me, proof that I existed after I quit breathing. I just don’t want to, it’s all here anyways. I don’t feel like wasting the words, again.

Still, good things are around, have happened.

I’m with someone wonderful, and it feels really spectacular. I’ve quit her so many times, but never for any reason that was real, she really ought to hate me. I’d hate me. She doesn’t hate me though, she loves me, and I love her. We like the same stuff, we have fun together, we’re more happy together than not. That’s love. Love isn’t supposed to be difficult, or sad, or inherently sacrificial. It’s supposed to be watching scary movies together, going places, doing things, together. It’s fun, not a torment. Not lonely. I forgot that, she reminded me. She reminds every day.

Also, President Obama won his second term.

2012 in Summary: Sucked, but is ending great.


3 Comments so far

  1. christieyant December 5th, 2012 6:11 pm

    @wholeexpanse So glad to hear things are getting better and you’re happy. 🙂

  2. Otavio Pacheco December 5th, 2012 8:03 pm

    Good to hear that it’s ending great for you too!
    I tell you that I’m feeling something similar, my last girl dumped me a little bit more than one year ago, and now I am pretty fine, it took me this whole year to overcome. And one month ago I’ve met another girl, just when I was totally fine with it, and now we are together.

  3. Monica December 10th, 2012 11:11 am

    Really glad that you’re happy. Looking forward to seeing more of your writing.