My Whole Expanse I Cannot See…

I formulate infinity stored deep inside of me…

Apr 15

I don’t know

Category: Life

If the NeuroSwitch doesn’t work tomorrow, I’m not really sure what will happen to me. I don’t know if I have it in me not to absolutely fucking snap. العاب قمار Between everything that’s happened with Sara, and my hand, and the rest of my life, I just feel lost. I’m damaged bad at best.


8 Comments so far

  1. jeff vandermeer April 15th, 2009 1:00 pm

    It’s going to work. And relief of that stress will put things in better perspective. hang in there. know it’s tough.

  2. Kny April 15th, 2009 1:09 pm

    Fingers crossed. I have a sneaking suspicion this is gonna be a great thing.

  3. Kara April 15th, 2009 1:39 pm

    Maybe you should quit it w/ the depressing music! kidding, kidding. I hope everything works out okay tomorrow.

  4. Angie April 15th, 2009 1:47 pm

    Gotta think positive! We’re all hoping it works, and WHEN it works, you’ll be able to do great things with your writing. Can’t wait to read all about it!

  5. Aimee April 15th, 2009 2:19 pm

    Not to get my hopes up, but maybe yours.

    I’m hoping that it’s Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! (like from Mary Poppins)


  6. Kitty April 15th, 2009 9:37 pm

    Mike –

    You’re surely an expert on the “diagnostic” approach to things… Medicine, computers, creating a life of meaning, being an employer…it goes on and on. How many times have you tried something new and had it work perfectly, instantly?

    It’s a complicated problem and will certainly have a complicated solution, but certainly A SOLUTION. But it’s been my experience that complicated problems tend to go try/fail/try/fail/try/kind of fail/tweak/fail/tweak more/start over/fail/try/tweak/succeed.

    I know you’re already well into this process in finding a solution and I hope it IS the end of the process. Who knows if it will be in the time frame that we all are hoping for?

    Just remember you’re not alone, that there are many friends rooting for you emphatically. This thing is so not bigger than you. Hugs – Kitty

  7. Alex Carnegie April 15th, 2009 9:42 pm

    Damaged: if you say so. You ain’t broken though. The things you’ve faced would certainly have broken a lot of lesser people. “Damaged but never broken”, right?

    Hope the switch works out. Bear in mind what you’ve achieved without it, however. I know it could potentially do great things but it’s a tool at the end of the day and the sheer creative ability that you’ve got in abundance will be there with a neuroswitch or without it.

    Awaiting the next update with all fingers and toes crossed.

  8. michael April 15th, 2009 11:22 pm

    Thanks, folks.