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Mar 31

Two problems

Category: Life

So, I have two problems regarding my writing. First, my hand is shockingly worse, my thumb feels practically dead. Physically, the words are getting harder to write, a new level of difficult. Second, the fact that I can hardly blog, let alone carry on a simple conversation, is astonishingly depressing. Being this depressed, it’s not easy to write anything decent, even if it takes six hours. I’ve never felt this kind of lonely.

A friend was over Saturday evening, my hand was so bad that I just couldn’t type to her. We finally ended up using the alphabet, which was pretty sad.


8 Comments so far

  1. Bill March 31st, 2009 4:01 pm

    We Brits may be full of shit most of the time, but if there’s one thing we’re good at it’s making the most of hard times. In fact, we positively enjoy them.

    As such, we have a vast lexicon of phrases specifically dedicated for keeping going when everything goes tits up. Take your pick from the following, free of charge. Regard them as a gift from the people of the United Kingdom:

    1. Keep calm and carry on.
    2. Buck up! (usually followed by “old boy”/”old chap”/”old thing”/”old bean” etc.)
    3. Chin up! (ditto)
    4. Could be worse!
    5. Worse things happen at sea, you know.
    6. Steady on, old chap.
    7. You’ll feel better for a nice cup of tea.

  2. Aimee March 31st, 2009 4:33 pm

    I hate to hear that your thumb keeps getting worse. I’m hoping the NeuroSwitch will be the key for you.

    I’m going to keep my fingers crossed since you can’t.

    I’m thinking about you.

  3. monica March 31st, 2009 5:07 pm

    to the ends of the Earth.

  4. Will March 31st, 2009 5:30 pm

    Enjoy the Haitus;

    ? – what if, Neuroswitch ends up with you 4x faster?

    Then this , Will be the Only Real Break you’ll impose…until something massive or awesome or dramatic happens….so Read More, that’s less taxing and, logical take-advantage of the shit mode thinking.

    Consider it a Gearing up, Super Mello phase, before, a whirlwind, yes? Fake it till you make it? Nope, not necessary here.

    instead, a Chill hour, yeah, make it that.

    if NSwitch makes you happy and fluid with words, then this unawesome period, better be put to good use.

  5. Alex Carnegie March 31st, 2009 7:54 pm

    Bill: Indeed. It’s telling that we British will often reply to the question “How are you?” with “Not too bad”, “Alright”, or “Can’t complain” – in other words not negatively but nothing too positive either… The “stiff upper lip” contrasts paradoxically with the national sport of moaning about everything all the time.

    Michael: I’d loan you my physical faculties if I could by the way, it’s not like I’m doing much with them right now apart from playing XBOX… It makes the hours I’ve spent on GTAIV this week seem utterly, cringemakingly frivolous really. This post has made me take a long hard look at what the hell I’m actually doing with my time.

    Will could be on to something re. the reading. Staying occupied, in whatever way, is probably the best way to battle depression. I can’t possibly comprehend how frustrating it must be.

    I really do sincerely hope that the Neuroswitch is everything you want it to be and more.

  6. Susie March 31st, 2009 9:32 pm

    Oh no!!! Why isn’t there some type of emergency service for setting up new switches?

    When I’m depressed I like to read about axolotls ->

  7. Will April 1st, 2009 4:13 pm

    Susie, rad ass Salimanders.

    I just chuckled from that fast switch up from heady considerations , to , well, those smilin’ little buggers. Cute little buggers.

    I wonder, now that I’m not depressed, what do I want to tell myself when I am?

  8. michael April 4th, 2009 2:05 am

    All: Thanks, I’m trying.